wickedddddddddddddddd

there's a girl i know, and he loves her so....i'm not that girl.

oh man. i can't wait for next weekend. old friends, new city, wonderful release from life.

how can you honestly think i really don't care? i'm sitting here, asking you, telling you when you want to talk i'm here and you have the audacity to tell me that i don't care? yeah, okay. that's exactly what it is. whatever.

...take it easy and heal...

student health thinks the reason for the lightheadedness and blackouts can be pinpointed to the still swollen head on my shoulders. they think i should take it easy and heal. eff me in the a. this means i cannot workout. sad times. what SHALL i do? arts and crafts? write a novel? my homework is all completed until thursday.
fuckkkkkkkkkkk.

What to say...

When people ask me if I've lost weight, I don't know what to say. Should I tell them yes? or should I hide it? Should I admit as an obese person that I had a problem that I'm trying to fix now?

What to say...

being overweight, you notice the little things. like how towels never manage to fit around your entire body.

i bought a towel right before i left for new york from wal mart and it was the biggest they had. it wasn't big enough. this afternoon, i noticed it does now. that makes me really happy.

it's hard losing weight and it's hard to focus again, but i need to get my head in the game and be serious from now on. no more fucking up.

i need to save my own life.

Here's to the nights
We felt alive
Here's to the tears
You knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name
On the line
Along with place and time
Wanna stay
Not to go
I wanna ditch the logical

Here's a toast
To all those who here me all too well

Here's to the nights
We felt alive
Here's to the tears
You knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go
Don't let me let you go

Here's a toast
To all those who here me all too well

Here's to the nights
We felt alive
Here's to the tears
You knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon
Too soon
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon...