Empire State of Mind?

i'm in new york.

it's strange. but, i like it. but i also definitely miss my friends. (what? i have friends? excuse me??!)

part of me wants to stop seeing all of their posts on my news feed on facebook. it makes me sad i am not there.

however, i am happy about my final night in ic; about all of my goodbyes.

i was sad.

i think my friends saw me cry. that makes me happy in a strange sort of way. people need to see the real me.

mack was sad. she cried.
strike that, we cried.

i will miss her so much. and i'm unsure if i even know how to communicate that to her. she is the greatest friend i made in daum last year.

also bex and i continued our tradition of being very close friends behind closed doors. in saying that, i mean i'm unsure if mack even knows how good of friends we are or like with zo how close we have become, but we are.

i mean, we were.
before i left.

now, i am afar.

who am i?

that is for me to decide, in a world where no one knows who i am, what i've done.

i can only show who i will become.

each day, as i take on a new sun beating on my shoulders, i must take the pressure and succeed. prove i can succeed.

this is new york. i'm here. my time is now.